Purple Lover

Hopeful Better Days.

2011-09-03T22:45:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya & Happy Merdeka!

Okay, lately things have been looking rather down (yeah I'm normally here when things are not good,lol). I haven no idea why but I always associate periods like these as just a phase. It'll pass. I mean, "This too shall pass"-KingSolomon,no? Well, I'm hopeful, extremely hopeful and optimistic. I hope it passes soon though as I have three more months of work and I don't want to ruin that. I don't have much to say right now, except that boredom was the key motivator to my being here.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Mental Note.

2011-06-21T14:17:00.005+08:00

Mental note, Jeswena: Don't ever get to close to those who are known to be irresponsible friends.

Also, be a more responsible friend, best friend, daughter, granddaughter and sister.

Update of mental note: Don't take too much from someone, you need to give as well. In any emotional, physical or mental way possible.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Boy + band

2011-06-14T17:20:00.005+08:00

You guys probably think I'm referring to the Backstreet Boys, N'SYNC, Westlife or some other cliche boyband names you've heard before. Sorry to disappoint, but nope, I won't be referring to any one of those names I just mentioned. In fact, I'm here to post about one of my favourites...., hold on, I think I should make them my FAVOURITE boyband of all time since I was a kid, you ready?

The HANSONS

or what they're more commonly known as, Hansons.

You see, lately I've been feeling kind of down for many reasons and thinking too much about what has happened to me. Listening to them brought back nostalgia of happier times I used to have as a kid. It makes me happy even in the present as I tune into songs such as 'I Will Come To You', 'Love Somebody To Know', 'Stories', 'Sometimes' and the ever-so-famous, MMMBop.

In addition, I've recently recalled one of my other favourite acts of all time. EMINEM yo!

Two trailer park girls go round the outside;
round the outside, round the outside

Yeah, that's what I'm talking about man. Okay, I'll admit that's not exactly what I'm talking about, of course I'm referring to most of his other lyrics which makes awesome sense, compared to that phrase. I just felt like typing that out. Yeah, his lyrics may be full of cussing and depression, but cut him some slack, Marshall Mathers has been through loads of crap in his life so we shall be more considerate. Plus, it did lead him and motivate him to come up with the awesome metaphorical s*** he has come up with over the years :D . Ahh, feels good having a little of his taste in my post while speaking of the lord-of-whiteboy-rap himself :) .

These which I'm mentioning now memang ze best of the best la which I really love and will always have a special place in my musical-entwined heart. Owh, and I'm a real hard on music lover so I'm sorry if it's too many to handle. Hehe. Though, no worries, I am not so shallow as to only have these musical interests. Trust me, you wouldn't want me to start. Trust me.

;)

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

MusicMakesPeopleGoGaGa!

2011-06-07T12:11:00.003+08:00

Songs for the moment:

1. Daylight - Matt & Kim

2. Fast Car - Tracy Chapman

3. Danza Kuduro - Don Omar ft. Lucenzo

4. Vem Dancar Kuduro - Lucenzo ft. Big Ali

5. I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How To Dance With You - Black Kids

6. Original Pranskter - The Offspring

7. Pretty Fly For A White Guy - The Offspring

8. Smells Like Team Spirit - Nirvana

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Not.My.Time.

2011-06-07T11:52:00.005+08:00

I've been having such horrible weeks these past few months. First off, I was so broke I couldn't even afford the Deadmau5 event eventhough I really wanted to attend. Then, even after I said I wasn't going so many times, my bestfriend begged me to go as she wanted company. So, I finally after a huge amount of persuasion and negotiation, we ended up with me going and in return I pay for only RM60 out of RM150 of the ticket. I felt bad as she was willing to pay for the ticket and so I decided to go eventhough spending even a cent on the event wasn't part of my plan. Anyways, it was fine as I could pay her back in a few weeks. However, tragedy striked!

The following week, me being my clumsy self accidentally pulled off a friend's car door lock (yes, the one that goes up and down). It wasn't even my friend's car which put me in more debt (bear in mind, I'm not the person usually in debt at ALL). The lock was fixed in the previous incident for about RM500 so I figured I needed to save up this much to pay the person back. About a month later I found out the repair was RM200++. I can't remember exactly how much but yeah I felt better a little for a moment.

A week or so after finding out about the repair price, while driving a co-worker's car it got scratched badly :/ .It was when I was parking right after reaching back to the office. How sad is that? Damnn.. Well, that meant I would probably be in another RM 300 debt. PROBABLY. I don't know the final cost until today, or whether it is even repaired yet but all I know is that I am in about an RM600 debt by now.

So yeah, I just needed to vent as I've been rather unlucky for these past few weeks. Hopefully, my luck changes soon. I received my first paycheck last Friday though but might not be able to use much of it, even to pay back for damages as I don't plan on letting my parents know what happened. They don't know me as a person well enough to understand those mistakes.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Sighh..

2011-05-30T22:46:00.003+08:00

Somebody please help me.

I wish I can just burry my head in a hole right now and not come out of it just to escape everything.

Go look for trouble, then don't know exactly how to get outta it completely unscarred, and I mean every party being unscarred. I'm lost, again.. sighh..

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

RT

2010-12-12T18:48:00.004+08:00

Okay, I cannot believe I used to be in love with this guy right down here.

Yeah, for those of you who noticed, its Justin Hawkins from the band The Darkness. I still think he is good looking, but nah.., not having the huge teenage crush anymore,lol.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Truth.

2010-12-08T02:00:00.002+08:00

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

ehheee

2010-11-25T12:32:00.007+08:00

Okay, so today was the fourth day of exam.
Things that have been happening in the past week :
1. - Monday was Presentation Skills exam
- Started studying frm 8am-2pm fr it and found the exam okay.
- Took bus home.
- Tired.
- Slept until next day.

2. - Tuesday was Writing for Mass Media at 11am and I.T. at 2pm.
- Hadn't studied at all, at 8am studied until 11am at coll.
- However, questions were unexpected, got pissed cause I feel it sucked.

- Studied I.T. for literally one hour.

- Apparently,the paper rocked! :D .
- Friends rang, went out with upper-highschool classmates to Sunway.
- Brought MP textbook but can't find tips, called lots of people to ask.
- Another fella called, went Patio around 9, came back around 3am.
- Found laptop screen going colourful on me, got pissed! -.-
- Slept.

3. - Wednesday was Media Planning.
- Studied from 8am to 2pm.
- Studied a lot but not much came out.
- It was okay :) .
- Two bimbos I love fetched me from coll.
- Went Subang Parade for lunch.
- Met up with rugged bimbo No.3, got stuff beforehand, so planned to take it ;D .
- Went Strawberry Fields.
- Went to some playground to embrace the stuff, was awesome.
- Went Patio with Efaa, felt like Fourian reunion ;) .
- Followed Izzaty and Dzikry home.
- Tried to study but phailed, so slept.

4. - Today is Thursday, Creative Comm was at 8am-10am.
- Managed to study in one hour.
- Felt it was okay, but worse than Media Planning.
- Satisfied cause now 1 more left :) .
- It is at 5pm tomorrow, a BIT relaxing :D .
- Now sitting at Concourse onlining.
- Bored, so decided to stop abandoning you bloggy.LOL.

5. - I'm pretty sure on Friday was Advertising Copyrighting.

- As far as I can remember, it was one of the toughest papers.

- There were many things to remember.

- Cant' remember what happened after the exam though.

- Can't recall what I did to celebrate it.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

MAFFACKA

2010-11-07T16:04:00.001+08:00

:D . Hey humans!

Okay a little stressed out now la.

Finals are near.

Many assignments and tests.

+ Presentations! :/ .

Damn, I'm doomed.

DOOMED!

aHHAHahha, just being the usual drama queen self of mine.

Okay, to those who have holidays, or study break of whatsoever now, Congrats and have fun -.- .

For those who don't (like myself), be doomed :) .

It's okay we be doomed togetha fo sho! Just jokes.

Be patient until our holidays start, thats what we should do :D .

Till then, anymore venting or posts out of boredom for no purpose whatsoever will be posted soon.

Happy My-Weekends-Are-So-Close-To-Over muchachas!

Owh yeah, and no to forget Deepavali too!

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

discontent.

2010-11-05T11:55:00.001+08:00

This is how I am feeling now>>

This is how I long to feel...

There are not many words that can explain this feeling, so this is the best I can do for now :) .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Soh Fah Ney.

2010-10-24T14:09:00.009+08:00

My English name pulak is Sofarney. Okay, yes, lame, I'm bored so yeah. Just wondering, have you ever noticed that James Brown is a really lazy singer? No offence to any fan, but seriously, I'm sure most people have noticed but I just feel like I gotta state it.

I mean c'mon, check out his songs, notice that in 'Escap-Ism', it's all practically dialogues, what happened to the Song?

In 'I Feel Good', he practically says just that throughout the song, 'I feel good', it's like We get it okay!

How about 'Get Up Offa That Thing'. Again he mentions the song title like thirty times.

Really, so how about we get just as creative as James Brown, pick a phrase for today and create our very own song. Wont be long until we start getting record deals ;D .

Have an awesome My-Weekends-Are-Almost-Over people! :) .

P.S. For reference, be my guest here people;
>> http://www.lyricsmania.com/james_brown_lyrics

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Lovey Dovey

2010-10-17T19:55:00.009+08:00

Okay, so lately I've been listening to really jiwang songs because I feel like it,lol. Tiffany introduced me to some cool ones as well. First, there was Auburn's Perfect Two, which i LOVEEEE. Then, Tiff showed me 'I Wished For You' by Jasmine Ash and 'Be My Only' by FM Radio which I also love so much. Sometimes these songs make me so happy , I cry! Ahahah, weird I know, but they're awesome, you guys gotta check 'em out :) .

P.S. Been feeling kinda down lately, not only due to the mountains of assignments and tests going on, but also because of something else, more personal. I wonder, what's really going on :/ ?

Anyways, just because it's the most recent, here's the 'Be My Only' lyrics, specially for those who are reading this :) .

I can tell by the way you look at me
You need to be mine
We could sit watch the stars all night
Till they disappear into the sky
I am yours and I know that you're mine
You're worth waiting for
You're worth waiting for
Be my only
Be my only
Be my only
Your hand in mine
I swear love speeds up time
And wind blows southern skies
Like a lullaby
Wasn't hard to fall
Your love's a wrecking ball
Watch your hands move along my face
They trace all the lines I've lived
It isn't hard to love your scars
'Cause that's everywhere you've been
I am yours
And i know that you're mine
You're worth waiting for
You're worth waiting for
Be my only
Be my only
Be my only
Your hand in mine
I swear love speeds up time
And wind blows southern skies
Like a lullaby
You're tearing down my walls
Your love's a wrecking ball
You're the one I'll compare all the others to
Like sunny weather
You're the one that I'll always come back to
Forever Be my only
Be my only
Be my only
Your hand in mine
I swear love speeds up time
And wind blows southern skies
Like a lullaby
The good the bad
I take it all
Your love's a wrecking ball
Reference>> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBMQZFLIsmo
;d . No good to plagiarise.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Damn.

2010-10-12T03:07:00.004+08:00

Woah, it's been long, so so long since I have written anything here. Well, more like typed, but anyways I don't really have much to talk about nowadays, hence the emptiness of my blog and such. I'm starting to be very boring. Also, I noticed how neutral I've become nowadays, it isn't much fun, I want to be my old self again, the noisy, hyper, happy-go-lucky, annoying me, with little less annoyance. It was fun, I never could shut up and had fun no matter what situation I was in, now I'm like a boring 'old fart'(copyrighted ;D ). I'm so quiet and reserved unless I have something really important to say. I still like hanging out with friends, but it doesn't quite make sense anymore because I'll just sit at the side quietly listening to what they're talking about whilst I reserve my comments basically because I don't seem to have any comments, funny and weird at the same time. I don't know what happened, but I'm going to try my best to me the old me again, I miss it :( .

Trying to plan something fun for my birthday, so far no 'awesome!' ideas, so if anyone has any ideas, lemme know please? :D . I want to celebrate my 18th with a possible Bang! or just a Ba..? LOL. Either ways, I just want quality company since ze bestie is not here & to have fun. :) <3.>

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Yaowwzaa!?

2010-09-10T00:31:00.008+08:00

YO!

-Tiffany just left for Canada about 2 weeks ago, but it feels like months, and sorry fo abandoning you, yes you, my darling blog :) for months, yet again.

-Updates, updates, updates, hmm.. What update can I give, I've nothing but bad news these past few months :/ .Owh, yeah did I mention I lost my phone? And failed my driving test twice?

-Dang it, it was harsh, yes, but then my appeal to take six subjects this sem got approved :D . So yeah, it's going to be Advertising Copyrighting, Writing for the Mass Media, Creative Communication Production, Media Planning, Information Technology Principles + Presentation Skills for ME & a friend of mine, this sem!

-We also have on week holls for Raya, which reminds me, SELAMAT HARI RAYA ya'll!!

-Okayh, hmm.., what else, what else??

-Owh Yeah, I did eventually get my liscence if anyone was wondering =.= .Aahahahaa.

-Using my dad's old SAMSUNG phone, whilst he borrows one from the office for now.

-He's getting a Blackberry soon, so yeah.

-I am struggling to start assignments now, but I better hurry and make it awesome because I have to do well this sem, yes, and Time, mind you, Waits for No Man!

-Wish me the best in scoring high grades this semester guys and girls. xoxoXoOXxxOox.Ahahahaha, Nacho Libre, LOL ;d . <3.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

hello World!

2010-06-27T09:01:00.009+08:00

It's like 9 am now and I haven't slept the whole day. Supposed to analyze some case study but I'm not sure in what sense? LOL, Don't worry, I am analyzing it anyways, minor adjustments can be made later on. I cannot wait to get my liscence. I am so bored with life at times, that at least with my liscence I can go to new places everyday so I cannot be bored :D .

Don't get me wrong, I get bored of places and things to do but not of people. Once I love someone, its hard to break that bond of love. Owh well, its just me, don't get freaked, out but the minute I meet a person, there is the bond, the love-I-feel-for-this-person bond, and its strength depends on how the person treats me. So if lama-kelamaan people do stuff that hurt me or piss me off, I can lose my love for them if I find them not worth loving, yes I really can ;) . As mean as it sounds, it is like, why take the hurt when it does you no good? I mean people that treat you like crap are bound to be people who don't care about you or don't love you kn? So yeah, that is how I feel about friendship love or any other love that is.

Soulmate love is a whole different story :) . I admit, I'm rough, harsh, mean, weak, over-sensitive and annoying at times, but with all sincerity, its only because I feel unloved. As cliche as it sounds, there it is, I'm admitting it to the world right now. LOL. I can be nice though, I am just afraid of people taking me for granted. I can be really nice if you are really nice :) . Owh, and it also has something to do with my schemas ;D .AAHhhaHHA, true true,I am not joking.

Anyways, I cannot wait for holls, nothing exciting in store yet but I have a really good feeling about it, other than the fact I have to do my liscence la. Scared la :/ .

Owh and btw, recently thinking of how silly this drama is, I think I am going to re-add someone. I think his ego is too high that the day he would start talking to me is the day I die, where he wont get the chance to and regrets, so why not eyh, I just start :D . Time to be nicer Jeswena, it is possible since you don't have a dirty or cruel heart. Not everyone is out to get you or ruin your life :/ .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Sigur Ros' song.

2010-06-14T21:27:00.010+08:00

Fljótavik Lyrics

Sjáum yfir rá

Sjóinn skerum frá

Við siglum mastri trú

Seglum þöndum

Við stýrum að í brú

Við siglum í land

Í stórgrýti og sand

Við vöðum í land

Ófremdarástand

Já anskotann

Feginn fann ég þar

Þökkum ákaflega

Í skjóli neyðarhúss

Og við sváfum

Stórviðri ofsaði út

(hopelandic)

reference>> here!

"Fljotavik" in English

We look over the rudder

Cut off the sea

We sail by the mast

Stretch the sails

We steer towards the bridge

We sail ashore

Up on the large rocks and the sand

We wade ashore

What a mess

Fuckin’ yeah!

There I found myself

Endlessly thanking

Sheltered in a makeshift house

And we slept

As the storm died down

reference>> here!

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

let it out!

2010-06-14T07:41:00.008+08:00

I've been holding it in for to long already, so I am going to let out half of what I feel right now, this instant..,

Yes, I posted some stuff, said few things about how I felt, it's normal, people do that and they have a right too. Get a life.., for pointing fingers and not noticing you do the exact same thing even before I started, mind you.

Yes, there are so many posts about you because unlike you, I have a heart n feelings about loosing a "best" friend and I realise the meaning of the term, however, at least people don't know who I'm talking about and I did not let out all my anger in one post because I think before speaking. My previous posts weren't bitchy, not here, nor in facebook (until now) & you got annoyed (God knows how).

Another puzzling fact,you're mad at me for calling you a bitch? Let me make it clear, you tell people I always call you a bitch? I call everyone a bitch and don't mean it,yes, but I least of all call you kayhh, don't act like you don't notice.

Then you say your deciding to do what I always advice you to (even though apparently you hate my advice), which is not be a hypocrite, and now your angry just because I called you a bitch? I'm don't even call you one in the past. You even admit all the time that you are one, and I always disagree because I never saw the bitch in you, until now of course.

No. 1, I always friggin' use the term bitch, you know that, so what do you have to say about it? Please don't give excuses for the fact that you let out your uncontrolable anger towards me in public, with details as well, you the best :) .

No. 2, Also, let me get this straight, you do not like people calling you a bitch, yet you are acting like one right now, this instant, and I'm not talking about what you are trying to do to me ;) . You know what I am referring to, trust me. Opps, but you don't trust me anymore. Then again, who do you trust?

Eyhh, hello, grow up la kayhh :) , your not worth my anger or sadness anymore if you're gonna act like dis.

I thought you were more than that. To think I was one of the few who, deep down inside, knew you were smarter than this. Turns out, I was wrong, like most of the time kn?

BeeTeeDoubleYou, the people who agreed with you, mostly don't even know me as a person well enough to make those kind of assumptions about me. So yeah, your happy and convinced whatever you said makes you so totally right, just because some people who are not even close to me agree with you? Woah, such a shame you need opinions of people who barely know YOUR "best friends" to help you make decisions on a "best friends" character.

Bad character judgement much? Yes yes, very bad, very very bad.

Yes I have decided not to be a bitch for so long, but I am finally letting it out because you have gone too far, making me look like a pure total bitch in public. Owh which I'm sure you enjoyed, well, sorry to burst your bubble. I know I am being a total bitch right now, but don't you think after what you said, this is fair and square? C'mon, lets be mature now and shake on it so we can forever hold the rest of our peace after this :) .

P.S. :

I am not saying you were wrong for everything, you are a really really good person when you want to be, I have seen it before. Yet, I don't know what happened, and yes, I know I was wrong at some parts, for my sarcasm is the tiny thing that started all this. So yeah, sorry for being sarcastic all the time but I do not insult you THAT bad okayh, you know that and sorry if I ever made you feel like crap, NO best friend wants that for the other. However, it is sad that you are not sorry for doing it in public instead of being mature and talking to me about it. Yes, you will be so angry when you read this because you know I am mostly right, maybe wrong at some parts, but you decided not to confront me in person right? So yeah, you will be mad but try to calm down and think rationally about what I said, if you cant, then I am sorry to say, our friendship is literally over.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

hurt.

2010-06-04T02:31:00.011+08:00

Hurts.

It hurts to know you don't care.

It hurts to know I do.

It hurts that you can easily walk away.

It hurts knowing how much I love you.

It hurts that you have moved on.

It hurts that I want to let go simply by knowing the fact that you don't give 5 shits.

It hurts to know how much I mean.

It hurts to use the past tense knowing I am no longer in your life.

It hurts that you do not know the depth and importance of this to me.

It hurts that you let people you barely know take over.

It hurts that you don't listen, but I don't blame you, for I don't too.

It hurts that you can't see all we want is your happiness and love you so much it hurts.

It hurts how harsh you are.

It hurts how everything you said doesn't matter anymore and how you can betray like this when you yourself hate false/empty promises.

It hurts knowing that we are temporary items for you.

It hurts knowing we have both done so much for each other and the basis of this 'break up' is so tiny and silly.

It hurts that you can't just tell me whats your problem so we can fix it.

It hurts that you never really knew how important you are to me.

Well, now I'm telling you.

You shoulda' known me better, I'm sorry but I don't speak of my feelings.

It hurts that you'd rather just let me go than working it out.

It hurts finally knowing how important I am to you..,

but I will never lie about how important you are to me. No matter how egoistic we both are, no matter how much it puts me down. I won't lie about the fact that I love you and still care about you for you should know by now what kind of a person I am and how much I care about all the people I love. It's a shame, and I thought you knew me better, turns out you don't :/ .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Y.O.U.

2010-06-04T01:59:00.004+08:00

I notice you every time you are there,

For once, I just wish it is not me who stares,

I know you notice my presence too,

Just maybe not the way I do,

Though I've always been very direct,

It feels weird diverting with you,

I can't see you upset,

It breaks my heart in two,

I'd like you to know how I feel,

Though your feelings I don't think I could steal,

People say 'You never know',

Yet I assume you wouldn't show,

So I sit there and wait,

For that special little date,

That you'd finally notice me all along,

Just the way I'd noticed you :) .

P.S. Just a random poem about some girls and crushes. Nothing personal.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

shorty.

2010-06-02T21:08:00.006+08:00

Lol. the title is because it is a short post. I've got a lot to say and in a way I am sorta glad I do not have many readers because I am very personal about my feelings here, not too personal but still. Anyways, life has been pretty crappy these past few weeks or months.

In these few weeks, a good friend is being immature and not talking to me, I made my effort, you didn't bother, so don't think I am going to come back for a second round, I lowered my ego once, you took it for granted. Now, I don't care if you don't ;) .

Also, a best friend is not talking to me, well at least that is what you labelled it, even if you are not acting like one :) . I won't hide it, well I do, but not here, for this is MY venting ground, so yeah, I won't hide the fact that I am hurt, really very hurt with most of the things you both have said and done and then come blaming me and accusing me like s***.

Well, I can't do much can I, so yeah, I am just going to let it be, my life is fine the way it is, things change, life goes on, if you both remain with your silent treatments, go ahead, for I know sadness is shortlived. I am not an evil person, I would know if I had evil thoughts, so yeah, I believe karma will take care of it and if not, there is always God, who sees and hears everything. So yeah, for those of you who care, no worries, I am kinda down right now but I will feel better, how soon? I have no idea.

On top of that, other things have blown up in my face, such as my phone incident as well as my assignment marks. I have been doing so much with so much on my mind and following instructions so yeah, I do not think I deserved the marks I got, and yes, it is depressing, I don't know why, maybe I am too paranoid about marks, maybe I have too much on my mind, maybe I am about to blow up and maybe I just find something/someone missing in my life. So yeah, until then, I shall update when I feel better or when I feel like it la ;D .<3.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

bullshit.

2010-03-28T17:53:00.009+08:00

Owhkayh, I'm going to be paraphrasing when I say this, but this was sort of the statement made which set off my fuse>>

"All sluts left, good girls no more."

Alrighty, first of all, you dumbass, LOL, not ALL good girls are taken, if you look hard enough or at the right kind of places you can find one which would suit you well. This goes for those girls/guys who have given up or almost given up hope as well. There is always someone for another someone(unless you're a no one, in which case, this doesn't apply to you, nahh, just joking, everone applies :) ).

Don't whine your little arse around when, for instance, you probably aren't even looking properly? You're not even a good person? You expect too much? You're too judgemental? OR (this one might displease most of you because it is a fact) You just love the dumb/bitchy/sluty/gigolo-tic/sex maniac/un-gentleman-ly/bad ass/mean/judgemental/materialistic ones?

Now, where would this leave any of the 'good' ones to stand any chance?

Ugh, please, you people disgust me (not referring to anyone in particular).

Second of all, moving on (before I get long-winded and lose my point all over again), you people always say, (I'm going to put this in general) I want this type or that type, I want him/her to be like this, like that, I want fairly good looking, I want down-to-earth, I want non-materialistic, I want non-racist/sexist/arsonist..etc.,(yes,i was kidding abt da last one), I want good, I want kind.

However, wake up and smell the three layer tea guys!? These qualities are all fads.., I mean if certain people were to act this way, it is all not real. Well, maybe some are but those are the exceptions. In relation to what my Social Psychology lecturer once said "The first 6 months of a relationship is all bulls***". Harsh but true :/ .

Also, upon saying/stating your qualifications for a partner, you end up with a possible someone who is totally the opposite and make it an exception, now why is that? Basically, just because he/she is hot =.= ? Good looking, handsome, pretty, beautiful, you name it. Everything else that mattered to you which probably is like what I stated above just fades away because you fell for someone's looks.

Honestly speaking, this matter does not affect me at all, it is not personal, it has nothing to do with a personal crush whatsoever, I am not speaking up on behalf of myself but on behalf of all the 'ugly' people out there or the people who feel 'ugly'.

You are not 'ugly', don't think you are, just because someone said so.That person has never gotten a chance to look at you as closely as you get to look at yourself everyaday of your life inside and out :D , to notice the amount of beauty you possess compared to the ungrateful/undeserving people out there :) . So yeah, be who you are, appreciate it, a little change is always good sometimes(not too much though) and last but not least, live for yourself FIRST and foremost-ly :) .PEACE & i'm out muchachas!

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

days.

2010-03-23T23:22:00.007+08:00

days..

passing by so fast now,

though there is so much to do,

how?

how do we survive?

how do we strive?

I would love to find something,

A way to slow time down,

So my work can be stunning,

When completed, no frown.

haiyoo, well, this is what I get when I write something spontaneous basically. Straight from the heart? Ehehe.. Continue later, just posted this because I haven't updated in a long while.

yummy!

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

laziness strikes YET again.

2010-02-23T08:21:00.005+08:00

P.S. I do not know the person in the picture. No copyright intended!

You want reference? Nah, amik kau >>http://www.travelpod.com/travel-blog-entries/annacarl/3/1260447839/tpod.html#_ .

Some random people, sorry if you feel offended :) .Peace yeah!?

I'm totally bored right now but also terribly sleepy. I can tell because of how heavy my eyelids feel. It is 8.30am now and here I am sitting in my college reading room, as usual, onlining. I want to sleep so probably right after I'm done with this post, one can can find me snoozing in the reading room before class starts at 10am =.= .

So lazy nowadays, and I heard there is going to be a journalism test this Wednesday but then I realised, there is no journalism class on Wednesday, there is only a class today. So I don't know if it will be sooner or later than I think. I do know for a fact, that I have not studied one bit though.

I guess that's it for now, been super busy and just thought of updating my blog, hence this small post. Well, better something than nothing right? :D .LOL. Till next time.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

hao! red indian greetings.

2010-02-11T19:50:00.031+08:00

LOL. I'm bored so I decided to blog. I'm with Mindy right now in her new place, it's quite cosy and definitely bigger with more space to lepak than her previous place. I'm staying over tonight and were both bored so she was playing a guitar which she just put down to continue onlining and I am here blogging. Ahaha.

I can't believe I'm often bored these days.

Remember those days when you were a kid and you feel annoyed that you can't do this and that, stuff which apparently only the adults can do? Well, I'm beginning to wonder why we even felt bad because it feels like when you were a kid, nothing bored you, pretty much everything excited you and you always had something to do. Now, it's sort of like a feeling of 'been there done that' so you keep thinking 'what else is there left to do?'

I don't know about the rest of the world but I certainly feel like that at times. However, this is where FRIENDS come into the picture. They are the one's who, other than family, make your life worth living, make you feel happy when your down, entertain you when you're bored and most of all go through everything with you (and yes, I meant especially the boredom).

I am so so SO SO thankful for very single one of my BEST friends, especially, whether you have made a big or even small impact on my life, as you showed me you care somehow, so even the mean things you did to me are covered up by these little things which mean a LOT to me. I LOVE you guys :) .

Tiffany Loh Yen May a.k.a. Tiff is ze BOMB. LOL. No one can understand me as well as you, even if no one at all understands me, you're the closest one can get to understanding me :D . I appreciate you for that, you have definitely been through it all with me, from primary school (where after all the arguing and yelling, by which finally we became friends, you helped me chase away the 'enemies',lol) to highschool (attending different schools was hard at first, but we got the hang of it and are the closest even if we're not always close to each other physically :) ). There is not much I can say to explain this kind of friendship to anyone. I love you unexplainably.

Iffah bt. Mohd. Hazim a.k.a. Efaa, is another BOMB, ahaha :) . Eventhough we argue a lot, bully each other, merajuk with each other, I still feel the love. You might not understand me completely, but sometimes you do and you definitely try your best to and will be there for me in any way that you can, I'm sure of this. The fact that you are one that can be counted on for reassurance or to make me feel better makes you really precious to me. I love you very much and I am unbearably sorry for what I've done.

Nicole Aldeth Main a.k.a. Nic, is yet another BOMB, LOL, what with your hot-ness. The fact that I know you love me no matter what :) , I love you too, makes me feel thankful for your friendship. We argue a lot as well but arguments amongst us don't last long, thank GOD. Your really fun to hang out with and know how to cheer me up without realising it. You gave me more experience in life when I put myself in your shoes to understand what you go through. I'll always be there for you, I hope you know that.

Amira bt. Alif Kong a.k.a. Mira is another one of my best friends. You also started off not liking me (same case as Tiff) but now we have become best friends, somehow. You're crazy and come up with the whackest things to say but is retardedly funny and fun to be around, eventhough we also argue a lot :) . You is in Russia now so I SO miss you a lot, terribly. I can't wait for you to come back though, so we can story-story.

Charmaine Anne Augustine a.k.a. Char is younger than me, but more mature than I'll ever be, in my opinion. You are the wise one.This girl is incredibly mature beyond her age. Eventhough you're 2 years younger than me, you can understand most of the situations I explain to you by putting yourself in my shoes. I love you very much eventhough we barely get to meet up. You are the one who knocks sense into me mostly.

Sonia Soon Chee Liang a.k.a. Sonia, my best friend as well as Wifey :) , Ahaha. Well, you're fiesty and will stand up for your rights no matter what which is why I respect this woman. You can be really rough when you want to be but mostly to stand up for your best mates. You are there for me when I need you which is why I treasure your friendship a lot, eventhough we wasted all those years not bothering to get to know each other better. Now, you are one of the people I love most.

Thevanesh Rao a/l S. Prabaker a.k.a. Tv is the love-hate relationship. I love you, as friends mind you, but you can REALLY get on my nerves, and I know this is vice versa. No matter how melampau you can be though, at the end of the day I still make ammends because I know when I'm down, I can count on you other to vent most of the time, and you can put up with some of my crap :) .

Nur Diyana bt. Anwar is another one of my fiesty best friends. You may be petite but you are one woman others do not want to mess with. You are crazy as crack but I love you just the way you are. You can make my day with the hilariously silly things you do :) . I miss hanging out with you after school or even in school like back in the day.

Farah Adibah bt. Nor Azmi a.k.a. Fara is the cutest thing ever. You are so bubbly that when people see you tell a story, they can laugh non-stop at you being so gelabah. You are the one who will be there if you're needed. Hanging out with you also can cheer me up. I love you very much and I hope you have learnt much from last year so you can be as happy as ever this year :) .

Fatin bt. Mohamad Muhiddin a.k.a. Teyn is another one of my best friends. You are really petite but speak your mind. Don't even think anyone can push you around. You're totally hardworking, which is one of the things i look up to you for being. Also another fun person to hang out with, I love this crazy shorty ;D . I miss the fun I have hanging out with you. Come stay over again!

Nadhirah Khatijah bt. Mohd. Kamal a.k.a. Dyera is my polite woman. You may be clumsy but you're the most ayu amongst the lot. I love you a lot and you mean a lot to me. You are an awesome listener and can give me really good advice eventhough our lifestyles are so different. We used to argue about little things but now that we see each other less, I've learn to appreciate you more.

Anna Nuraina bt. Abdul Malik a.k.a. Anna is the most patient person you can ever meet in your life. Seriously, people who don't bother enough to take the time to know you better are losing out on your wonderful personality. You're big hearted, super nice, kind and soft spoken but you can also joke like there is no tomorrow. You are one of the more funny best friends I have and I love you for being yourself :) .

Farrah Hannah bt. Abdul Razak a.k.a. Farrah is just an awesome person. You left for boarding school awhile back but never forgot us back here and always keep in contact to update me with your life. You're so cheery and bubbly which can cheer me up when I'm down :) . I love you a lot and I 'm always there if you need me, I hope I've been there for you as much as you needed me to.

Daniel Kiruben a.k.a. Dk is a very good friend. We haven't met in awhile but you still keep in touch with me. You give great advice at times and you seldom talk to me but when you do, I don't feel awkward at all. Ever since you went to Australia, I've become closer to you as you have been there for me at times. I love you as a good friend because I can talk to you about almost anything :) .

Hanif Zurlani a.k.a. Hanif is another one. You use to annoy me like hell with Faizal and Adrin, but you're damn funny and I hope I'm there for you as much as you were there for me. Thanks for being there when I needed you to and for the advice as well as knocking sense into my head a lot. I also playfully argue a lot with you because you're too patient to really argue with,ahaha. I love you for being someone so easy to talk to :) .

Nikketa Kaur Dhillon a.k.a. Nikki is another crazy one. I remember back when you used to update me with everyone you date and the details of every story. I miss you and haven't seen you in a very long while but I love you so much and you're always in my heart no matter how long we haven't met. You are incredibly cheerful and gedik but a really awesome friend.

Ainaa Huzveen a.k.a. Ainaa is a really good listener and can make a boring topic seem interesting as well. I love you for listening to my babbling about random stuff which is sometimes crap. You always remember me :) and I miss times in class when we used to just sit on the floor to talk. I hope I am there for you when you need me to be.

My other good friends who mean a lot to me whom I love and miss so much are such as my 4T&5T classmates like Sakinah Amirah, Faizal Ashraf, Bush Chang, Joshua Jarrett as well as others like Lim Heng Kit, Shahira Romli, Afifah Azlan, Kevin Teoh, Amanda Cheng, Daryl Sin, Meena Kumari, Adrin Zharif, Neerusha Biaspal, Jane Lee Hui Yee, Sanjna Suri, Vanna Chong, Evon Low, Kristin Choy, Suresh, Michelle Siew, Howard, Edward Rishal, Vinod Mohan and others whom I might not have mentioned due to stml (short term memory loss), I'm sorry but I'm sure you know who you are ;d .

The new friends who I really really care about are such as Mindy Lim Jen Mee and Aaron Lee Szion Jin (see,i remember k ngok!). Eventhough I have known them for only a short period of time, and we might not always get along GREAT but they were there for me when the others weren't and they were as understanding as they possibly could be :) . Yes, I do love you guys too.

I guess you could say that these are the people I actually give a shit about :) <3.

Other new friends I've made are such as Anand Kumar (thanks for being there for me), Faisal Hassan (thanks for always putting up with my ton of questions), Kirubanathan Asogan (thanks for coming early to teman me when you do, your an awesome person to lepak with and you're funny too), Charlyn Siok (helps as best as she can), Wee Horng (thanks for teman-ing for waffles and what not), Evaatsanee Nai Prasad (funny little gila girl), Vinod Jay (very helpful fellar also), Hadi Mohd. Nor (thanks again for the entertaining post,lol), Katherine Anne Kaur (I loike her mouth and I wish I had her courage), Lam Shun Peng (we can just talk on and on about random stuff) and Keith Jason Pinto (though your a really really new friend, I like how open you are).

Post written on 12th of February 2010 and continued as well as published on the 13th of February 2010.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

uhuh.uhuh.

2010-01-31T00:36:00.004+08:00

Today, I had to wake up at 12am for a high tea at PJ Hilton with mom's friends as usual.

For any one of their birthdays there is always an outing. So yeah.

Later, my besties wanted to hang out because it is Neerusha's birthday this coming Tuesday. Therefore, we decided to celebrate it today as we are busy on weekdays.

Thankfully, my parents decided to go to Sunway instead of MidValley or I would not have gotten the chance to join in the celebration. I met up with them at around 8, we all went for dinner at PapaJohn's and later on, hung out at Republic for a bit.Hui Yee and me left early because she had to bounce and she couldn't bounce alone. Lol. What I meant was she can't go home driving alone, it's not safe, so yeah, I went along :) .

Now, I literally just reached home and I'm tired to bits. So I shall be OFF in awhile so I can have some beauty sleep since I so NEED it ;d .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

fcukit.

2010-01-30T01:59:00.010+08:00

sonofamotherfuckingassholicbitch.

whatthefuckisyourproblemyoufuckingannoyingpieceofshit.

dothisandthat?likeifuckingdontwantto?butlikeifuckingcanright?icantyoustupidarseholes.

ificoulsifreakingwould.iwishicould.

iknowthatwouldhelpavoidthesestupidbastard-ishfightsandotherfuckingshit.

fuckyouall.

fuckingsickofallthiscrap.

likeidontalreadyfeelfuckedupwithotherstuff.

thanksforaddingontoitknowingwhenimpissedoff,

igoweakandthinkofallthemiserableshit.

irealisestuffwhenimangry.

ithinkirationallyalot.

sometimeseventhatcangetworse.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

realise.

2010-01-25T02:27:00.019+08:00

I realise how easy it is for many to walk right in and out of my life.

: For those who came into my life as soon as they left.

I realise how I'm not on top in any list of priorities.

: For those who made me feel important but little did I know I was never as important.

I realise I have low self-esteem eventhough my confidence is average.

: Ironically,I am shy yet outspoken.

I realise how whatever I say or feel can sometimes be misconstrued as sadness even when it's not.

: For those who judge me beforehand.

I realise that I don't usually talk about my innermost feelings.

: All because I can't bring myself to let it out to whom I should.

I realise I'm afraid of being not as important to them as they are to me.

: To everyone who is important to me.

I realise how I'm sometimes a temporary object.

: No matter how permanent I want to be.

but....

Some fail to realise that I'm only human as well and I have feelings.

: Even if I'm seemingly 'heartless' on the outside.

.........................................................

I realise I am not a very good friend, daughter, sister, cousin, bestfriend, good friend, close friend and (as a whole).... person.

: I feel I am and I'm sorry for that, I truly am.

but....

Do you guys know how much I care about you guys and love you?

: I hope you do :) .

Well, fyi, i do, very much. I would put you guys above myself, any day...., try me.

: I would, I would, I would, ooh.

lol.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

NewLayoutYO!

2010-01-18T02:36:00.004+08:00

As you probably would have already noticed, I changed my layout :D . Of course, with the help of Tiffany, well, it was more like me helping her do my layout which we were very detailed on doing. I was directing away and she was doing practically everything else because I'm too much of a tech noob or too technology impaired to do much :/ , so yeah. Thank you TIFFANY LOH YEN MAY for my new layout :) .

All's well ends well though so no worries. I think the layout turned out great. After the hours of editing, I am SO VERY relieved and happy with the results.

Other than that, I have college tomorrow. Excited much?LOL.

Owh well, I'm going early, as usual, so I guess I'm going to do my 'homework' in the Reading Room because I'll have loads of time. Yes, I've got time, only for NOW.

Soon, it'll be back to hectic-ness.ahahahaha. =.= .NOT even that funny man. Owh well, I'm rather happier that I'll be getting busier soon. I have my reasons ;) . Anyways, Happy My-Weekends-Are-Over-For-Now people.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

L. V. Beethoven.

2010-01-11T04:59:00.007+08:00

Owhkayh, it's like 5 am and I still can't sleep =..= .

Listening to Beethoven, downloading Beethoven's piano pieces, facebook-ing, blogging and onlining*sigh*. I hope I won't be too tired tomorrow.

Owh, I almost forgot, I realised something a few days back. Certain people who I might have considered 'friends' previously have actually proven themselves to be no more than acquaintances. Therefore, I shall treat them as acquaintances. Now I know how one of my friends felt when she was being treated this way by people she thought were her 'friends'. LOL, and yes, I DO realise that it took me quite long to realise this.

At times like these, how I wish I didn't love humans so much. Damn that made me sound like an alien huh!? Well, I'm not, I guess only I get what that means, so yeah :) .

I mean a real friend, a person one can actually consider a FRIEND is someone who's there for you, all the times you need them to be there. For example, when your happy, sad, angry, emo, excited or even in love. I mean that's what I would do for anyone.

Anyways, weekends were sort of boring. I SO cannot wait to get my liscence =.= . Owh, I have not even completed my 'homework' for my Intro to Journalism and Digital Image Editing classes, which I'm planning to do in the reading room tomorrow. The fact that I have something to do now IS tiring but I know how well I get used to things, so yeah. Also, I am loving having things to do no matter how tiring it is. I want to be occupied like all the time if that's possible :) .

Namun, whatever, lol. I shall just continue listening to my Beethoven, try to fall asleep(as if I have time), wait for the right time to take a shower and facebook.

Beethoven ROCKS!! It soothes, ehehe :D .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

and again,a SONG.

2010-01-09T21:07:00.003+08:00

Almost Lover Lyrics
Artist(Band):A Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Chorus:

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no
I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
*Chorus*
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?
*Chorus*

reference :D =>http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Almost-Lover-lyrics-A-Fine-Frenzy/54B24F B6AD9A97DC4825733100170DBB

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

strawberry swing.

2010-01-05T20:59:00.002+08:00

They were sitting
They were sitting on the strawberry swing
Every moment was so precious
They were sitting
They were talking under strawberry swing
Everybody was for fighting
Wouldn't wanna waste a thing
Cold, cold water bring me round
Now my feet won't touch the ground
Cold, cold water what ya say?
When it's such…
It's such a perfect day
It's such a perfect day
I remember
We were walking up to strawberry swing
I can't wait until the morning
Wouldn't wanna change a thing
People moving all the time
Inside a perfectly straight line
Don't you wanna curve away?
When it's such…
It's such a perfect day
It's such a perfect day
Now the sky could be blue
I don't mind
Without you it's a waste of time
Could be blue
I don’t mind
Without you it’s a waste of time
Could be blue,
Could be grey
Without you I’m just miles away
Could be blue
I don’t mind
Without you it’s a waste of time

by Coldplay

reference ;d =>http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/coldplay-lyrics/strawberry-swing-lyrics.html

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

evening yo.

2010-01-05T19:53:00.003+08:00

Ehehe, owhkayh, firstly, I skipped college 2day because I only had one class and it was at 12pm. I usually follow my dad to college at 6.30am so since it was going to be the first day for that particular class, I thought I could be lazy enough just this once.

In the first lesson, so far, for 3 other classes I've been in, the lecturers either just gave us the course structure or just did they're own thing.

A waste of time right?

As of yesterday's events, it was a little complicating but I shall try to explain the situation.

Owhkayh, yesterday I had breakfast with my dad, then headed to college at around 7am after breakfast. When I reached college, I walked straight to the floor with all the timetables to check mine out. I think I was too eager to know my timetable because when I looked at it, my jaw dropped.

There were 3 days with 10 hours STRAIGHT of classes and the other two days had 6 hours straight of classes and 4 hours straight of classes respectively. I immediately freaked out and texted a few of my friends straight away due to my shocked state, also because I didn't have anything else to do as the enrollment center would only open at 9am or 10am.

I waited and waited, then I decided to go to my first class which was due to start at 8am. I bumped into my course mate, Ivan, and told him about the timetable shock. However, after awhile, I asked to look at his timetable(as he already enrolled) and noticed it wasn't so f***ed up after all.

That's when I realised I overreacted and didn't read properly as the timetable for Semester 3 students posted on the board had covered both classes. Which means, I had 2 timetables to choose from in this sem and it would not be so hectic as his timetable even had a day off.

By the way, I had forgotten that my intake had been divided into 2 classes because there were so many people who enrolled at the time. Also, there were other complications as half of us took different subjects than the other half last sem because Introduction to Social Psychology was full and the lecturer only had room for one class in our course, which means for this sem we're going to be taking different subjects as well.

To further complicate things, many people in DMC Semester 3 are getting seperated because of the choice some were given on whether to take the subject they had failed in other sems in this sem. Quite a few people took the offer, unlike me, I had decided to take I.T.(which is the only subject i failed so far) in my last sem.

Anyways, back to the story, I felt better, sat through the first class, then later enrolled officially to get my timetable which was actually the same as Ivan's but later on got changed to a different section, which means I was put in a different class because I enrolled rather late and that class was full. The only thing is Moral is a separate issue as everyone who takes moral is together because there is only one class. This means, the 2 classes have separate timetables and classes but the moral has to intersect as its combined. Get it? Owh well.

Later on, I noticed my timetable had another issue. The other section's timetable was fine as the moral class did not coincide with any other classes but for the people in my section, the moral class coincides with Introduction to Journalism. =.= . Another problem, issue, you name it, whatever.

I went to ask about it and all they told me was "Owh, there is a problem with the timetable and they will fix it. They have to fix it by this Friday or we're all done for, so no worries as of now and come back to get the new timetable on Friday. Also, please explain to your lecturer's and for now, go to intro to journalism on monday and moral on friday."

Then, my next class was due in few hours so I went for lunch or brunch with Kiru, who had the same timetable as me. At that class, there was no one as they attended moral instead. We were dismissed early as there was no one there. We then decided to check out the moral class. After moral, I explained to the lecturer what the assistant said earlier and then went back to intro to journalism to explain to that lecturer as I forgot to explain to her earlier when we were in that empty class.

Later, I went to meet up with Aaron and Mindy at ac with Amanda. Then, Amanda and I tried a new game in ac pool area while waiting for Aaron and Mindy to enroll. When they came back, Amanda left to join her friends at the library and we decided to walk to Subang Parade.

So we did :) .

We did a little window shopping, had tea at Manhattan Fish Market, as there was an awesome offer there. Lepak quite awhile there actually and later, went for some more window shopping. Mindy got some jewel thingy's for her nails and then we walked back to MyPlace, where Mindy lives. I headed to the bus stop right away as I was getting tired, due to my 1 hour sleep the night before(takes some getting used to, damn, my eyebags will be back).

At the bus stop, I was falling asleep when I got a text from Thevanesh, I couldn't help it as I was too tired so I asked him for a favour. I asked if he could fetch me from the bus stop and he was like, I'll be there in awhile. So I didn't have to walk home yesterday thanks to him :D .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

whee.

2010-01-04T01:41:00.001+08:00

I.Don't.Know.What.To.Say.

Well, college is starting tomorrow. I 'll be in semester 3 starting tomorrow. Fast ain't it? Owh well, it's like kind of at the right time cause I was starting to get bored of my holls already.

What can I possibly do, after 2 months of freedom, I had begun to space out already. Anyways, I am sort of a restless person who gets bored of things easily but surprisingly, not people*touch wood*. Due to that, I needed a change of scenery and actions which is what going back to college after a 2 month break can give me.

I found out I have 5 subjects for this semester including digital image editing and some form of marketing class. I dread marketing but I hope I will learn to enjoy it.

I shall list down everything properly when I'm hardworking enough and when I get my timetable which is tomorrow. Will update a.s.a.p. tomorrow cause I'm getting lazy. Goodnight people. :D .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

hello!

2009-12-30T20:35:00.006+08:00

LOL.

Owh,owhkayh,

If you want to know so much.

Yes..

I am emo now..

like right NOW,

but,

Don't ask me about it please.

If I feel right, I'll tell you about it.

If not,

PLEASE..

Let it all blow over first.

I'm talking....,

err....,

2 months I guess?

then you can ask away!

go.figure. ;) .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

I

2009-12-30T00:58:00.003+08:00

i am fragile, possesive, forgetful, forgettable, in disbelief, sensitive, stuck, clueless, easy, annoying, temperamental, combustible, determined, having fun, and a DRAMA queen.

i feel helpless, happy, sad, forgotten, betrayed, like trying, annoyed, angry, stupid, jealous, outcasted and lonely.

how can a person who is not alone feel so lonely?how can no one know me well enough when there are lots of people who know me well?

i need someone to understand, but who?i need someone to know me well enough, so who?

i want someone worthy of listening to listen, someone who understands, to be strong willed, to be half heartless, to be happy, to feel meaningful, to forget the rest and....,err....,ehehe, to study hard for next sem :D .lol.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

irony.

2009-12-29T01:34:00.005+08:00

the irony of it is, recently, when I need to talk to someone(certain ppl only,not just anyone), apparently no one is available for a simple chat or I'm just too afraid that it'll be at wrong timing-s to call anyone!

So I wait by the phone waiting for it to ring....,

S.T.U.P.I.D. isn't it!?

P.S. One minute, your there for me and the next, your gone.

P.S.S. Don't say something unless you can proove it or show it.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

quotes ;) .

2009-12-28T22:08:00.004+08:00

"I am good. but im not an angel.i do sins,but im am not a devil.i am pretty. but im not beautiful. i have friends. but i am not the peacemaker. i am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love."

"The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space."

"The nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least I can dream."

"She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important—you know ."

"It's often just enough to be with someone. I don't need to touch them. Not even talk. A feeling passes between you both. You're not alone."

"You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself."

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."

"if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

"Every thing happens for a reason"

"I have feelings too. I am still human. All I want is to be loved, for myself and for my talent. "

{all above quotes}- Marilyn Monroe (introduced by Efaa) .

"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." - Dr. Seuss

"Be the change that you wish to see in the world." - Mahatma Gandhi

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away." - Maya Angelou

"If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything." - Mark Twain

"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." - Martin Luther King Jr.

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them." - Mother Teresa

"Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own." - Robert A. Heinlein (Stranger in a Strange Land)

"People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway." - Mother Teresa

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson (A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of a Course in Miracles)

the above quote can also be found in the movie Coach Carter where the character Timo Cruz uses it.

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up." - Neil Gaiman (The Sandman Vol. 9: The Kindly Ones)

"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you." - Maya Angelou

"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way." - Pablo Neruda (100 Love Sonnets/Cien Sonetos De Amor)

I'm getting angry.You won't like me when I'm angry. - The Incredible Hulk

Now, I'm going to bed, before either of you get another clever idea to get us killed, or worse, EXPELLED - Hermoine Granger(Harry Potter)

She needs to sort out her priorities. - Ron Weasley(Harry Potter)

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Dont.ask.me.why..I.dont.know.why..Just.felt.like.it.

2009-12-28T21:59:00.009+08:00

Taylor Swift-Fifteen

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors

It's the morning of your very first day

And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while

Try and stay out of everybody's way
It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here

For the next four years in this town

Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say

"You know, I haven't seen you around before"
'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

You're gonna believe them

And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out

Well, count to ten, take it in

This is life before you know who you're gonna be

Fifteen
You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail

And soon enough you're best friends

Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool

We'll be outta here as soon as we can

And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car

And you're feeling like flying

And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one

And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends

When the night ends
'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

You're gonna believe them

When you're fifteen and your first kiss

Makes your head spin 'round

But in your life you'll do things greater than

Dating the boy on the football team

But I didn't know it at fifteen
When all you wanted was to be wanted

Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday

But I realized some bigger dreams of mine

And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy

Who changed his mind and we both cried
'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

You're gonna believe them

And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall

I've found time can heal most anything

And you just might find who you're supposed to be

I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen
Your very first day

Take a deep breath girl

Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

TheFabulousCats-Rimas

2009-12-27T14:59:00.003+08:00

Lari, lari, lari
Aku lari tingalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari, cari, cari
Ketenangan diri

Pergi, pergi, pergi
Engkau pergi dari hidupku ini
Ku tak mahu, mahu
Engkau hadir dalam diri ini

Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak di dada
Biar ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti caraku memujukmu
Pernahkah kau hargai caraku mencintaimu

Lafaskan kata dari bibir
Adakahnya dari hati
Mungkin kau tak fahami maksudnya yang tersembunyi
Titisan air mata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini

(Korus)
Mengapa
Aku yang terluka
Aku yang merana
Aku yang menahan sisa baki cinta ini
Engkau yang meminta
Aku yang sengsara
Rimas, rimas aku rimas

Rap
Tidak pesona kecundang
Istana jiwa ku goyang
Roboh dan tumbang
Sawan ku lantang
Tidak berpantang
Letupnya siang-siang
Bukannya alang-kepalang datangnya perang
Dan bawa ku ke jurang
Pulanglah sayang janji ku tatang
Ku hapuskan dalang
Dalangnya sayang
Sayangnya hilang
Hilanglah garang
Garang ku Terbang melayang
Terbongkang ku terbangkau terhoyong-hayang
Tak pandang belakang
Terkangkang kira ku tak diundang ku rapuh
Semua tak bertiang janji ku kini kan berulang

(Ulang korus)

Lari lari aku
Lari tinggalkan
Tinggalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari
Untuk mencari ketenangan
Aku pergi tinggalkan
Tinggalkan kau sendiri
Ku pergi, kini ku pergi
Tinggalkanmu

(Ulang korus 3x)

reference ;d => http://www.allthelyrics.com/song/1235015/

ilikethissongokayh<3.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

what do you want from me.

2009-12-26T21:36:00.003+08:00

It's not until now I realised how much of a people pleaser I am. It's true though, you can't please everyone...., but you can at least try right? Well, I guess not. Nah, I mean I know it's wrong, SO wrong! It ends up hurting you most. Pleasing them makes you happy but heartsick and pleasing yourself makes you feel satisfied but discontentment. How I wish there was a third option like right now! :/ .

P.S. Please make this easier for me and try to be more selfless.

Anyways, I SO cannot wait for college to start! :D .

At least I'll have something to do then, study, assignments. I know it's weird to look forward to stuff like that but sometimes when those are the little things that lift my spirits, given I actually have something to do, it will cost me no thinking time or excessive daydreaming. That is just what I need right now :) .

Life's not perfect, niether can we make it perfect, but we CAN make the most out of it, as it's too short to waste a second not enjoying it.

As for love, however, I'm as confused as a lost puppy right now, but I have my own beliefs as to what it is and I'm not going to let setbacks or people hurting me stop me from holding on to those beliefs.

P.S.S. You can tell me it's all bulls*** and crap which doesn't exist but that's because you've given up. That's not me, that's you.

I haven't given up just yet, so I don't appreciate you telling me that and expecting me to follow in your footsteps. I'm sure everyone has their very own perception as to what it is and I hope no one lets anyone else stop them from believing in their own views on what love is. Maybe I'll give up someday, who knows, nobody knows the future.

Just because I'm 18 does not mean I don't know anything about it, it just means I know less than you.

P.S.S.S. I cannot wait to turn at LEAST 20 so people can stop just talking/hearing me and actually start LISTENing to what I have to say.

Taking the easy way out is NOT COOL. Owh, owhkayh, well, maybe for some things it is but not the more important things.

Ahahahaha, cheh, I'm starting to sound like some wise person who knows everything. Well, my point actually is, as a matter of fact, that i DON'T. We learn about this stuff from each other, yes, but it also does not mean if someone wishes to act stupid, you have to learn their stupid ways, LOL. TheEnd. :) .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

aiyaiyaiyaiai.

2009-12-21T20:33:00.001+08:00

Today, I got up at 10 minutes to 11 am, freaked out, ran to the phone straight, called Ainaa, apparently she just woke up too and got a call from Sakinah at around 10.40.

So we rushed to get ready and just while I was drying my hair after I got out of the bathroom, they called and were outside my house already.

I didn't know they remembered the way also. Owh well, we met up with Fara, Hanif and Faizal at Fara's house and left in one car. First, we had breakfast at Lotus before heading to 1 Utama.

We spent the whole day at 1 Utama today, walking around, eating, bowling, playing baseball and having a drink after all that. We headed to Darrusalam at ss15 later on for early dinner before going back home.

It was fun hanging out with them as it was like highschool days only we're much more mature now. Same things I remember :

Ainaa was still her usual self who is rather a good listener and the motherly one ;d .

Sakinah was still the mature one....who knows how to handle situations :) .

Fara was still the gelabah and merry one :D ....even with whats going on.

Faizal was still the same.... dragging my name into every single conversation without reason just to get on my nerves =.= , lol, so HIM.

Lastly, dear old Hanif was still making lame silly jokes and acting all grandpa-ish but considerate as well.

Man, I miss them eventhough I just saw them, I had fun catching up on and remembering good old times. :D .I hope we can do this again soon,ahaha I already booked ya'll ah! You guys told me just now, your Universities will have holls on next June probably. So yeah, I shall keep that in mind and will make myself free for you guys. :) .<3<3.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

updates(no details).

2009-12-21T04:04:00.002+08:00

17th December 2009

The day before my birthday, I woke up in the morning,had my bath, randomly had to choose my outfit, went for breakfast at a yummy place at Shah Alam and came all the way back to Subang Jaya. Later, I went to Sunway with Tiff,Neeru,Sonia and Hui Yee to just hang out. MNG had a sale so i got a sling bag and a t-shirt for myself.

We also watched a movie, The Princess and the Frog. It wasn't so bad for a cartoon-type movie. Later, we hung out at Rainforest for awhile before deciding to head back home. I was rather down for the day because of certain prior incidents and misunderstandings. However, on the way home(Tiff's home), it turned 12 and everyone yelled Happy Birthday!! It gave me quite a fright but it was sweet and we decided to stop at 7 Eleven for awhile because Tiff said she needed to get something.

Little did I know that she planned to meet up with Efaa there so Efaa can surprise me, wish me and give me a chocolate bar(awwww,so schweet). I was shocked as she told me she won't be able to see me on my birthday but there she was technically on my birth date :D . It was such a pleasant surprise and i cannot describe how much better I felt as earlier in the day I had a misunderstanding with Efaa. So yeah, THANK YOU EFAA, YOU MADE MY DAY, ILOVEYOU. :) .

18th December 2009

Woke up in the morning, feeling like P. Diddy....,owhkayhh nah, I was just playing,lol. I meant to say we woke up the next morning and had to get ready straight as Tiff's mom had planned to take us out for my birthday :) . They planned to take me to the Curve but due to certain circumstances I influenced them to go to Sunway Pyramid. Plans changed when Tiff had a date with her boyfriend so I tagged along with them to go to Subang Parade so he could get his protein and we could have lunch.

Later we headed to Sunway to meet up with Tiff's mom and brother and supposedly, Nicole. This time, we had lunch at i-Canton(well, it was tea time for me though), did some shopping and then had to leave. Plans to meet Nicole didn't work out, I didn't feel so nice on that day either, but by the end of the day, I was okayh. Tiff's mom bought me a dress because they thought I looked cute in it :) .THANKYOUMUMMAYH.ahahahaha.

After that, we stopped at some shop to buy DVD's and then headed home to watch some. I feel asleep first though.Who would have thought that this was just the beginning. Tiffany so determined to make it a whole week of Jeswena's birthday!! Crazy, yes, but super duper sweet,the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me, honest. :D .

19th December 2009

Today, we had to wake up early again because of my 7 days of birthday surprises.lol. So yeah, we woke up, got dressed and headed to Sunway, yet again. The last time we went to Sunway it was 4 days of Christmas shopping(sorta) and now it was 3 days of plain hanging out.

We bought tickets to watch Avatar first and then had loads of time to spare. So we decided to have lunch at some rather fancy place, the food was expensive, yes, but AWESOME. Yet again, thanks to Tiff's mom. After we finished eating, mummayh gave us each rm100 and then told us to walk around and meet her right before the movie starts. She is honestly so so so so sweet,such a sweeeet person. :) .

So with that, we sorta went shopping as I got 2 tops and a skirt for myself whereas Tiff got herself a tank top and shorts. After that was the movie and we headed home. Owh yeah, the car couldn't start so we had to take a cab home. Frankly, we think we got cheated but owh well, you gotta do watcha gotta do.

20th December 2009

Today, again we had to get dressed as soon as we got up eventhough we only slept for 6 hours which is considered long actually if you take into consideration all our sleeping habits and patterns. I wore my new top!!lol.We headed to the Curve, for a change, today.

We went window shopping a lot, had some juice, walked around IKEA a lot, had early dinner in IKEA, walked around some more, watched Zombieland and lastly had dinner(sorta) at some shop and then finally, I was heading to Home Sweet Home. I got to see my papa after about a week or 10 days actually.ahaha. I realised it is actually rather long.

When I got home, papa made tea for me and mama had given me a charm bracelet. Well, it doesn't have any charms on it yet, but that's the whole point of a charm bracelet, you gotta start somewhere.

Tomorrow, I am going to 1 Utama with my highschool mates I haven't seen in a long while. Well, I meant like haven't got to spend much time with 'em in a while.

Again, not enough sleep as I'm probably going to sleep after this and it's already 5 am now,damn. I gotta wake up around 9 am i guess because I have to be ready by 11 am.damnn.

I'm already getting sick due to the fatigue(my prescription). Well, I've been walking a lot these past few days, not drinking much water, not having enough sleep and wasting loads of energy so yeah.

Hopefully I feel better in the morning. :) .Goodnight everyone.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

argh!

2009-12-14T23:41:00.002+08:00

i'm SO stupid!

I know this feeling is killing me! I just don't know what to do about it. Owh yeah, firstly I wanna say sorry to my blog fr not updating in a longggg whileeee. Anyways, I honestly don't know what i even CAN do about it??

I don't know what I can do because I know I can't talk about it,its not understandable to others, yet I can't even keep it inside or to myself. I'm trying so bad to keep it to myself but it's hurting me even more than I ever imagined. I feel a need to confide but I feel like no one is listening. Yes, it feels like people do hear, of course, but do they really listen? That's what I need, not only fr anyone to listen but to also understand what I'm feeling. Urghh,ohmygod, so much DRAMA =.= .

Why do I care SO much, why do i bother so much, why is that so? I know i shouldn't as it is most probably not a two-way thing, whatever I'm feeling now. I wish I could control myself from caring so much or believing so much. Why is it so easy fr me to trust,why am I super gullible? Man, that's loads of answers to need =.= .

P.S. Memo to beloved friends & family though, I am NOT celebrating my birthday as of the 18th December 2009.please and thank you. :) .

I do not have any reason in particular but can we just pretend its a normal day? My plans on that day are to sleep at around 12 a.m. and wake up around the same time the next day :D . Yes, I do realise it sounds pathetic, I do, but to me it's not pathetic but it's the truth. It is exactly what I feel right now, after the whole one-year wait and one whole year of living as a 18 year old, there is honestly nothing for me to look forward to. I feel people should be happy,excited,joyful on their birthday and look forward to it.Well, now, pfft!! It's not even important when the birthday girl is feeling empty or down on her birthday month. It just kills the whole spirit, it ruins everything.

Hopefully I'll be better next month though, even though I highly doubt it :/ .Why can't you be more considerate or honest? A little bit of consideration, I don't think that's too much for me to ask of you.Is it? :) .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

LOLOLOLOL.

2009-11-06T01:10:00.001+08:00

Okayyhhhh, so holidays have begun since the 3oth of October 2009 and here I am not even halfway through it but starting to feel the BD (Boredom Disease).

I'm just waking up, bathing, eating, sleeping, onlining, peeing, pooping and texting. Owh, and I forgot watching movies. Damnit! Owh well, at least I still have this dear new blog to turn to at this hour.

The previous post was lyrics to a song and music video I have loved for a very long time, so yeahh. Man, am I really this bored!? To the friggin extent of me detailing every single thing I'm doing or did. I want to go out, I want to but then again, I don't want to. I am so stopping myslef in reality but right now, I don't really know, what is fun to do or, what I feel like doing for fun anymore. I feel so lifeless.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Shayne Ward - If That's Okay With You

2009-11-06T00:57:00.003+08:00

If that's ok with you

I love the way that you look without your make up
I had a girl before we met but we broke up
Theres something 'bout you that makes me want to step up
step up and be with you
If that's ok with you

We'll keep the neighbors awake too late too late
cos imma make you feel so good thats how i see it happening
yeah we'll keep the neighbors awake to late too late
cos baby i wanna step up and be with you
if thats ok with you

Chorus:

im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna thank your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you

I wanna keep your toothbrush at my appartment
Make a second set of keys and ask you to move in
I'm not crazy
I know what im getting myself in
I wanna live with you
If thats ok with you

*Chorus*(2x)

if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
yeah yeah

we'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late
I wanna love you this way that way this way
We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late
I wanna love you this way that way this way

*Chorus*
(Im gonna love you)

*Chorus again*

If thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Woah.

2009-10-26T16:10:00.002+08:00

woah.., I just noticed how dead my blog is, I'm really sorry for abandoning it for almost a month but I was super busy and and and I needed a break,whatever I need to say is A LOT so yeahh,no time to write all of it here right.

Okayy,so to sort of summarize the last month, since I'm feeling really lazy now, I had pondered on whether to cut my hair for quite awhile before I had some sort of polling system for it on Facebook :D .I noticed there were more "cut" than "don't cut" even though it was really close. I eventually decided to randomly start with a trim one fine day along with Mindy.

We liked our new hair at first, as we both had a trim for even our fringes. This was on Monday and the next Monday, I randomly decided again, to go have a real hair cut this time because I had to wait for the bus, it was still early and Katherine Anne Kaur (lol!) said "it's just hair,it'll grow back".

Almost the same thing Britney Spears said right!? I wasn't about to take advice from someone who was mentally unstable at the time and sub-consciously shaved bald!? Which is why it made a bigger impact on me, when Kath said it.

Therefore, I went for it and at first, I looked like an office girl but it was nice. It still felt average though and everyone said it would be better if i trimmed it a little shorter. The very next Saturday, I decided to do it after careful consideration. It looks okay but my wavy roots are kicking in which makes it look funny.

I noticed I do miss my real hair though, after seeing loads of old pictures (wonder why out of all the times, the pictures are turning up now!?).LOL.I keep wondering was it the right move? Owh well, what's done is done, I'm happy with it right now though even if I do banyak songeh.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Hadi Here.

2009-10-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

Hadi here. I was sent by the CanYouBelieveTheFuelPriceNowadays?!God! organization to do a research on Jeswena Kaur Chahil. I've spent the last 15 days analyzing this 'wonder of the world' and I found out a lot of facts and theories about her.

Jeswena is a walking IQ game. Talking to her is like solving a puzzle. She talks fast. Real fast. She talks fast and a lot. My interview with her:

"So, let's start with your name."
"My name is Jeswena, I'm 18 years old. I live in Subang even though I don't really know the way around here. It's really confusing! I (this is the part where I spaced out) I was like "What?!" and then this guy with a moustache like (I spaced out) Five bucks! Can you believe that? I was screaming! So then I said "Bang, mana ada Nasi Lemak tak ada ayam (spaced out) ..."

I pretended to listen and nod throughout the interview. I recorded the whole interview with a tape recorder but the tape recorder committed suicide.

So I went to her friends who live around Subang:

"So, Aaron, what can you tell me about Jeswena?"
"Jeswena?! Let me tell you about Jeswena--"

My interview with Aaron cannot be displayed as he used a lot of vulgar words. Some vulgar words he used can't even be found in the dictionary or even Google.

"Mindy, what can you tell me about Jeswena?"
"Where's my extension that you guys borrowed?"
"Uhh..."

My interview with Mindy too cannot be displayed as she used a lot of vulgar words. Noone was hurt, except my feelings and self-esteem.

All in all, Jeswena is still a mystery to all of us. But I will say this: Don't vote for Jeswena if she ever runs for Prime Minster. Seriously, do you want our national flag to be blue, yellow, red, white and purple?

Sincerely,
Prof. Hadi
Cambridge University's Head of School of Janitorial Arts

speciallyforyou.

2009-09-23T21:10:00.003+08:00

Amira Bt. Alif Kong

missing you weyh.

<33.

btw, I chose this image because is shows YOU.

chinese + malay = chilay

*according to you la :)*

We are missing you, cant wait for you to came back!

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Wowza.

2009-09-23T16:28:00.003+08:00

Okay, I'm going to try and summarize everything, as in my holidays so far.no pictures though! I know I'm slow but when I get them I will put them up.

18th September 2009

I went to college as normal today and on Fridays we have 6 hours of break time so we were dead bored thinking of what to do. Finally, we decided to go back to Mindy's and sleep. We surprisingly ended up sleeping for 4 hours straight and woke up just when there was 2 hours left to class. We used the remaining 2 hours to makan-makan :D .

After lunch at AC we sat around for awhile and headed to class. Later, I supposedly had to rush home and pack as I was going to Malacca but I got distracted by Dwana's cute little abandoned puppy and started playing with it. We all were but I stayed the longest after asking my father to help send the driver to fetch me because it was raining heavily and getting dark. So, I waited and waited and while doing so, I was playing with the puppy and talking to Dwana.

Finally, they came and the first thing I did was start packing when I reached home and after that, took a nice warm shower! We ended up leaving at around 8 or 9pm I think, but we had dinner at home though. Eventually reached Malacca, and slept off! ;d .

19th September 2009

Woke up he next day rather early, around 10am I think. Supposed to go shopping with parents, and sightsee a little around Malacca*although we have done that countless times,it never gets boring :) * .

I bought some new stuff,lol,not much but here goes nothing. I bought a pair of leggings,a pair of jeans,2 shirts and quite a lot*for me* of accesories, including HAIR accesories :) . I had my favourite dish there, that night, which is pari with rice for an early dinner. For lunch, my mother recommended the char siu rice, also good!

After all that, went to walk around Malacca for awhile around A'Famosa Fort and the city. By the time we got back, I was dead tired so I slept off!again. =.= .LOL.

20th September 2009

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!! :) .

maaf zahir & batin.

So yeah! Today was raya, and me and my family went to celebrate in my aunts house at Negeri Sembilan*she's a muslim convert :) *. Along with my 5 cousins and eldest cousins' boyfriend*my uncle was outstation-ing*.We reached around 2-3pm for lunch and stayed until around 10pm after ice cream for dessert! We had lots of fun, well, I did! :D . Then it was back to Malacca and off to bed :) !!

21st September 2009

Today we went to the zoo at Malacca,spent around 3-4 hours there, not bad with lots of animals. We had A&W for lunch and walked around for all those hours :) .

After that we went to see the replica of the Portuguese ship and two other museums, the Navy museum and the Samudera museum. It was fun seeing historical stuff but History is not fun to study though,thank god we're done with that now,us 18-year-olds. :D :) .

Anyways, that night I had pari again! After dinner, did a little accesory shopping and left for some well deserved SLEEP!*ahhhh :)*.

22nd September 2009

We woke up early this morning to come home as we already had plans. I, was supposed to go for Amira's open house/farewell as she is going to study in Moscow, Russia :( *she left yesterday at 2.00am btw*. My sister, Jillian, and I only were supposed to go home so we did. I have no idea what her plans were.

However, when we reached home, we found ourselves stunned! We had not even had our lunch yet along with the driver and batman*fyi,means like a male nanny or something* who sent us back home.

We were stunned because there was water all over the floor in my room*=.=* and it led to the kitchen so half the kitchen was wet as well. It was a mini flood i guess because the water was about 2-3 cm high but covered the whole floor. All the things on the floor were wet*we're drying them now and restoring it btw, some are still outside*.

I immediately grabbed a mop and started mopping because everyone else did not know where to start so i thought "what the heck!?" and I did something about it*the staring instead of doing something was rather annoying*.

When I started though, everyone helped, the driver and batman did most of the work including me*who fell asleep awhile later*. I was agitated at someone for being so ignorant but whatever! I had to leave at 3pm so before Tv, Efaa and Nicole fetched me, I ordered them some McDonalds since we all had not eaten and my sister had gone off as soon as we got back. Later, I was off to Mira's and we had fun catching up,chit-chatting, and eating raya food!

Mira did not want us to go to the airport that night as she was afraid she will start crying and she did not want us to see her cry :) *how sweet eyh!?*. We were adamant though and thought of making it a surprise so when we said we will go and she said no! i forbid you, all we did was mumble and ignore her.

After that, Nayim, Nicole, Efaa and myself left for Efaa's and waited for Tv so we can plan the how to go that night. While waiting, we had ketupat goreng and drinks for tea as well and Que decided to come as well because he thought of asking us to come over his place at Cheras that night but we had other plans so we told him to come over first.

Then, Tv arrived and after awhile Nayim left as he was not following us to KLIA. We stood around planning for awhile and decided we all would go in two cars*Que's and Tv's* and then later come back with Fara who was going on her own, as me and Efaa could not get back too late due to the circumstances and so Que, Tv and Nicole could go to Cheras.

When we reached KLIA, Mira was only a little surprised to see us as she had a hunch we would be there and even told Tv earlier on, "if you come,i hope your car got accident :D"*her mouth is always like that :)*. She was happy though that we came, I could see from her smile. Thank GOD Efaa was there as she was the one along with Fara cracking jokes all the time making everyone laugh until none of us cried :) .

It was fun hanging out at McDonalds altogether before going back our separate ways to college and her going to Russia. We said our goodbye's at around 11.45pm and left as Mira had a briefing at 12.00am before boarding the flight. Man! i will surely miss her :( .We have been rather best friends since we were 14 years old :) . We went through loads of emotional s*** together and eventhough we drifted a little apart in Form 4 when we were all in different classes, we still had a bond where we have each other in our hearts and minds eventhough we dont see or speak to each other often.

Highschool was the BOMB and so are you girls :) . I will always appreciate and care about you all no matter how lupa kawan you guys say I am.<33333333.

Anyways,had a great weekend la and day but I am so stressed because of numerous things right now,OMG!daymnn, I have to start on my assignments and studying =.= .owh well, better late than never! :D .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

okaywhattosay.

2009-09-13T02:34:00.003+08:00

lol.old picture in form5 highschool road run,and yes,if anyone wondered,its a co-ed school! :) .

okayh,lets start with my bestie,*drumroll*........TIFFANY. :) .

so embarrasingly stone-ed-ed in public!

see that ugly little thing which tried to squeeze in and ruin a good picture!?well....,thats ME! :D .

ooOOOoOOo,old picture.like also 4 months or 2 months back. :) .

i saw her taking it!and i wasn't ready,he didn't.owh well!

cool ehh,credits to Tiff's awesome-ness photography! ;d .

at the pondok that raining-motha-effing-cold night!

few years back at quicksilver!omg,look how small we were.wheeee. ;) .owh,btw,Sunway Lagoon.

almost perfection :) .

favourite no.,colour,alphabet!

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

morepictures.

2009-09-13T02:24:00.003+08:00

look like fcuk!but bangga because this was when I first started eating after 4 days ;) .lama sudah.

retardation at its BEST!lol.playing pool right after exams finished.. :) .

really old picture but I miss it.eheh. :) .good times.*all nicole's dresses btw*.

banana boat!*which someone had said looked like a big floating dick*LOL.shhhh. ;d . before NS sial!

at AC toilet also awhile back,like what??4 months back!?ahaha.<33.>

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

previouslypromisedpictures.

2009-09-13T02:18:00.005+08:00

LOL.lorong=runway*kononnya*

playing Left4Dead at Starbucks Sunway*actually quite awhile back this picture but I'm posting random pictures,so wth!*

Jesus Christ!*not saying it in vain k! ;d* in Edward's car.

the owh-so-boring-but-self-and-friend-entertaining-Amcorp-Mall! =.= .LOL.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

anotherSONG.

2009-09-13T01:23:00.003+08:00

Tracy Chpaman-Fast Car

You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere
Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove
You got a fast car
And I got a plan to get us out of here
I been working at the convenience store
Managed to save just a little bit of money
We won't have to drive too far
Just 'cross the border and into the city
You and I can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living
You see my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
I say his body's too young to look like his
My mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did
You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way
I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone
You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs
You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving
You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

reference,lol.>http://www.lyrics007.com/Tracy%20Chapman%20Lyrics/Fast%20Car%20Lyrics.html

p.s. everything is more that it what meets the eyes.

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

oops.

2009-09-10T07:41:00.001+08:00

owh , and did I mention I found my thumbdrive in my big laptop bag yesterday , eheh , :) .

Well , it was a BIG bag and the thumbdrive WAS really really deep down inside. Aahahha .

Owh well, thank the heavens . I feel much better now ;d .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

OfModernTimesAndPastMinds.

2009-09-09T19:34:00.001+08:00

5th September 2009

Continuation....

After my exam,
I met up with Tiffany and Edward at AC because I was supposed to stay over at Tiff's straight away but she had already planned to hang out with Edward. I had to tag along because of this and despite how much I have heard of Edward, this is the first time I have ever met him. We hung around AC for nearly 2 hours because Edward and I we're kind of playing a staring contest :P .

Also,
we we're deciding where to hang next and finally we agreed to go to a mamak somewhere around PJ *near Edward's place* with the best ayam goreng sambal* or something like that*. When we reached, there was no ayam goreng :( because they only sell it at night.., so we were told.

Then,
we decided to go around to see Tiffany's old school *S.R.K. Kampung Tunku* and her old house as well. Due to the earlier disappoinment, Edward redeemed himself by taking us to a really good rojak stall also in PJ. It was really good so it was kind of our lunch :D .

After that,
we thought we would sit in the car and decide where to go next since the day was still young, as by this time it was around 3 pm already. My suggestion was to go to a mall simply because they made me choose and I felt like going to one. Most of the malls we like we're in KL*jam* or Sunway *boring* or even Subang *boring as well* so we kept thinking which mall would be suitable. Finally, we thought of Amcorp Mall, it was my second time there, it was in PJ and there were not much jams.

At Amcorp,
we were quite bored but because of each other, we were properly entertained :) . The place was boring, no denying that but we had a great time that day. In the car we talked a lot, camwhored, sang, danced and in the mall, we talked a lot as well, told jokes and did a little shopping.I really do mean little okayh. ;d . I only bought a BBB*big black belt*. One I have been searching for, for quite sometime actually. It was nice and suitable.

After we walked around was when we went to Starbucks for tea time actually. There, we each had a drink and I had something hot for a change
* I love hot drinks especially during tea time :) *.
As we were having our drinks, we laughed and talked, it was super duper fun laa, seriously!

However,
something shocking happened, I bumped into someone I have not seen in months and not talked to face to face in years *2 i think*.
Surprisingly, it was only my second time there and I bumped into that person of all people. Mr.Moses. Aahhaha.

Well, no one knows exactly who he is here but he is my ex. I thought he did not see me but apparently he did as he called and asked where I was and he guessed right because I think he saw me first. Owh well, what a surprise.
Anyways, bottom line is we had fun that day! :) .

Later that night at around 10 pm....

Tiffany and I were in her house waiting for Vincent *Sonia's cousin brother* to come fetch us for yumcha. Everybody who was there was tired and rather quiet that night except for Julia who wanted people to talk. LaughOutLunatically.

It was Tiffany, Vincent, Sonia, Julia and me present at Tanjung that night.
After the moment of everyone's silence was over, we started playing truth or truth which is what made us talk finally actually. We had fun playing that but had to leave rather soon because Sonia had class the next day.

After Vincent sent Julia and Sonia home,we decided to hang out for a bit since we were getting chatty in the car.

The only problem was where!?

Eventually,
we ended up at the padang near Tiffany's house.
We sat under the pondok talking and talking about life and everything and I mean EVERYTHING :). It was fun and good to know we all trusted each other well enough.

It started to rain just as we started sitting there and it continued the whole time. It was wet and all but we still had fun eventhough we were shivering. I did not want to bother Vincent when he offered his jacket but after a while I could not stand the cold and he was nice enough to take it for me seeing my condition :) . thankyou for that!

Later on,
after lots and lots of talking, I noticed Vincent pulak was feeling really cold so I gave him back his jacket. :) . Tiffany, on the other hand, was wrapping herself warmly with her shawl and she was already wearing a sweater to top it all off. =.= .Owh well! :) .

6th September 2009

We woke up at around 2pm and were supposed to go for a lunch with Edward but could not because of Tiffany's had something which just come up. After everything was done and over with, Tiffany and I went to a mamak near her place and Edward had also canceled the lunch eventually.

That night,
Tiffany's boyfriend, Ganesa was going to spend time with her so I sat at home in her room watching "He's just not that into you" while her family went out for dinner and she went out with him. The movie was awesome, it tells the tale of many different couples through their trials and tribulations but the movie is so cute in a way. :) .

When Tiff came back I was tired so after talking a bit,I fell asleep and she fell asleep later on.

7th September 2009

Woke up late again on this day but forgot what time. ;P . Ahhahha.
Went downstairs for "breakfast" first, more like brunch laa. We had chicken rice or as they say kai fan and I made us a glass of milo each*3 in 1 :) .Eheh. *

Later,
we went back upstairs to transfer my pictures from the phone to my laptop. We had dinner at a chinese restaurant nearby and her parents sent me home afterwards.
It was a Monday ByTheWay on this day.

8th September 2009

Today was supposed to follow my mother to college but she apparently forgot me or just did not want to wake me up. =.= .
Owh well,thank GOD laa,got more time to ZzZZZzz.:D .

Anyways,
I woke up later that same day and went to college by a cab at around 1pm.This was because class on that day was at 2pm. :) .
Thankfully.

After class,
I had forgotten about my promise to Tiffany about a movie premier screening but when she called I immediately felt guilty and thank goodness the time she came to fetch me was right after class. We have long breaks in between classes for this semester ByTheWay.
Class finished at 6pm and she came around 6.45pm so I manage to have something in my stomach just in case :D .

Suresh fetched me along with Samantha and Tiffany in the car & we were off to the Curve Cineplex! :D . The movie is coming out on the 10th but we were going for the premier :) so we watched it on the 8th.
The movie was "The ugly truth".
It was a nice movie, witty, charming and adorable.

Before the movie,
we had shared a chicken teppanyaki and I had teh tarik whilst she had a lemon..something thingyy. It was delicious.MmmMmMmm.

After the movie,
we waited awhile for them at the car park and then, he sent us home.
I had a good night that day.The day was nice too :) .

9th September 2009

...That is today actually........I feel like poop because I cannot find my thumbdrive and if I don't soon,I am screwed! =.= .

Also felt a lot of things today but I am not going to waste my precious time to explain it. blablabla. I'll get over it, sooner or later.<33.

ByTheWay,
my mother forgot to fetch me to college again today thinking I did not want to follow her. =.= Anyways, her friend sent me to college eventually because I texted her ad she felt bad.

When I reached college though, I slipped on a flight of 2 steps =.= .
I know right!?!? I think my ankle is sprained now, haihh, I was reading my timetable when it happened. The whole floor was the same colour so I did not notice the steps.

At first the pain was okay but later on it worsened so for our last class Aaron helped me get a pack of ice and it felt better by the end of class so taking the bus and walking home was not so bad after all :) . Feels good knowing I have friends like Mindy and Aaron always around me in college *knowing my clumsiness :D*.

aRRRRrrrRRrrRrR.
Fcuking pain now my leg. Feels better than when at class just now but still pain like fcuk. =.= Limpling like retarded fark. haiyoo. Owh well, at least not many people noticed. :) .
Class tomorrow, haihh. So tired! outcasted.

p.s. I am going to make my day, week, month, year and LIFE fruitful and happy.

p.s.s. pictures in next post*GOD knows when*.

THE END

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

LongOverdue.

2009-09-05T08:00:00.001+08:00

3rd of September 2009

My beloved poh poh passed away,speculatively in her sleep but we'll never know for sure.I t was in the morning but I was one of the last to know at around 4-5 pm that evening.Long story of how it happened,its a funny story so it would be insulting to speak of at such a moment.So we went to the funeral parlour right away for the memorial and stayed until around 12-1 am.

4th of September 2009

Went back to the same place and heard the pastor speak for awhile.Then,headed to the creamatorium where she would be cremeated.Lots of tears here and there,it went as how a normal funeral would have gone.Later that day,came home to study for my IT re-sit which is on saturday at 9am(i thought it was 8am) and I was really really exhausted. :( .

R.I.P

Madam Vivien Lau Nyuk Siew

11th of July 1917 - 3rd September 2009

p.s. Yesterday my mother asked us,"who gave poh poh the owl,there was an owl necklace".I

said,"urmm..,me.why?".Then she said "uncle(okayh,he has a name which is actually a

nickname but I don't know how to spell it) said that she always wore it so he decided to put

it with her in her coffin.".I was so touched..,it's burnt now though.

5th of September 2009

Here I am sitting in ICSJ(INTI College Subang Jaya) reading room while waiting for the exam to start as I just read the bulletin board and found out the exam is only starting at 9 am.Stupid I.T. re-sit paper!I couldn't even study man,too much on my small mind.Can't handle it.

I don't feel good.Why do I feel like the world is against me!?It's not!

I so hate this feeling..,I hope it fades soon.People are unjust,it's life.deal with it!The bad don't always go punished and the good don't always go unpunished.Define good and bad.What do they actually mean anyways?

*I have no idea how much more I can take*

THE END :)

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

move,BITCH!get out the wayy hoe!

2009-08-31T00:39:00.003+08:00

Owhkayhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,

the title is a joke :) .Now, firstly I wan't to say that I have regretted some of the things I posted but I am not referring to my last post. I meant some other things. I hope you people get what I mean but if you dont, nevermind! ;) . LaughOutLunatically.

So anyways,

as I was saying, no wait, actually this has nothing to do with what i was saying. I was saying just now about how I should screw what I said which was for nothing and by "nothing", I mean I am referring to a certain someone. ;) . Hell yeah! ahah, no idea what that was for actually.

Owh well, today had quite some fun when I was last minute-ly invited to a buka puasa thingy with my family and mother's friends a tropicana.

First,

I was invited and then my mother apologised for having to leave me behind and 2 hours before the thingy I was re-invited =.= . Aahha....,it was rather amusing because my mother's friends are entertaining folks.

Later,

we *as in my family alone* went to visit my mother's emak angkat's son's house at tropicana as well *since it was near by they invited us over*. My mother wanted to see her emak angkat *they're rather close* so we talked and talked with my mother's siblings angkat, hahahaa. They find me rather amusing because I keep arguing with my father but WhatTheHullaballoo *Hullabaloo copyrighted from Mindy :D*.

My father can be such a kid all the time as he cannot sit still and his past time is finding fault with me or just bullying/annoying me. It was a malay family so we decided to go back early so we won't disturb their ease to wake up for sahur *smart move mama :D*. Well, had a fun time anyways though it was rather awkward as me and my sister were the only one's wearing baju kurung, ahah. This is because my mother just made three pairs for each of us and guess what!? Mine's all purple =.= . What a surprise. I love it though since I love the colour and I AM appreciative. :) *still wearing it*.

LaughOutLunatically.<33.>

Till next time....PEACE and I'M OUT! :D .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

itsokayh.

2009-08-14T19:01:00.005+08:00

I am going to copy and paste something from my best friends blog because this is exactly how I feel about the way people treat me nowadays.I feel like I'm being judged to quickly by everyone and I want people to know the real me.

Yes,I do want people to know how I feel but NOT know about me being sad and hurt. I wish they don't have to know all that and I'm sorry if it shows too much.I just need them to know how I feel as in what I think about myself and what kind of person I am.

Honestly,

I don't want others to get affected by my actions or feelings and I'm sorry that I haven't been realising that that has been happening and that is what everyone thinks of me.

Yes, I am sensitive, I do try to control it, and still working on it, but I do not take advantage of others, never have even thought of it that way. I'm sorry if people feel I am but I am not and I will do the same for a person I consider my friend.

I just need people to understand and know that....

Anyways, I'm going to just type very little and not everything that's been happening because it is personal and it is too much to type,

Literally, too many words so nvm,im lazy now.. :D .

So yeah,this is the copy&pasted thing which in my opinion is very true about me....:

Did you even put any effort on getting to know her more instead of just judging her?

P.S. I do not mean anyone to feel offended by this because it is directed to anybody who judged me before getting to know me well enough. I don't mean it to any one person in particular. Honest : ) .

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Come Back To Me - Utada Hikaru

2009-08-13T09:04:00.002+08:00

The rain falls on my windows
And the coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don’t want to be alone

I wish that I could photoshop on
Our bad memories
Because the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won’t leave me alone

If you come back to me
I’ll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

Chorus
(Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
Boy you’re one in a million (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
You’re one in a million
(You’re one in a million)

Memories I have of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this, and she buys that
Just leave her alone
I wish that he would listen to her
Side of the story
It isn’t that bad, it isn’t that bad
And she’s wiser for it now

I admit I cheated (admit I cheated )
Don’t know why I did it (why I did it)
But I do regret it (do regret it)
Nothing I can do or say can change the past

Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I’m sorry but
I was too young to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity
Got the better half of me
Baby take it easy on me
Anything from A to Z
Tell me what you want to be
I open my heart to be
You are more priority
Can’t you see you punished me
More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me

Baby take it easy on me
Baby come back to me
Baby come back to me

(Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
Boy you’re one in a million (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
You’re one in a million
(One in a million)

La la la la
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
La la la

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

nicesong.

2009-08-01T19:49:00.003+08:00

THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS LYRICS

"Your Guardian Angel"

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
Chorus:

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.

Seasons are changing

And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
*Chorus*

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

*Charus*
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

MichaelFranti-SayHey

2009-07-29T23:58:00.002+08:00

This one goes out to you and yours
worldwide
Chorus:

I say hey I'll be gone today
But I'll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see
the less I know
But I know one thing
That I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I’ve been a lot of places all around the way
I’ve seen a lot joy and I’ve seen a lot of pain
but I don’t want to write a love song for the world,
I just want to write a song about a boy and a girl
Junkies on the corner always calling my name
And the kids on the corner playing ghetto games
When I saw you getting down well I hoped it was you
And when I looked into your eyes I knew it was true
*Chorus*
Now I’m not a highly metaphysical man
But I know when the stars are aligned you can
bump into person in the middle of the road
look into their eyes and you suddenly know
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
Dancing in the night in the middle of June
My momma told me don’t lose you
‘cause the best luck I had was you
*Chorus*
And I said rocking in the dance hall moving with you
I said Hey momma hey momma close to you
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
I said hey papa, hey papa close to you
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
I said Hey Momma close to you
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you I said
hey momma, hey momma, hey momma, hey momma
hey momma, hey momma, hey momma, hey momma
what you gonna do?
My momma told me don’t lose you
Cause the best luck I had was you
And I know one thing that I love you
*Chorus*
I love you (3x)
I love you (3x)
I love you (3x)

all thanks to tiff tht recommended this song to me! xD :fine, tiff here!

reference :) =>>http://www.metrolyrics.com/say-hey-lyrics-michael-franti.html

J.e.s.w.e.n.a

Purple Lover

Hopeful Better Days.

Mental Note.

Boy + band

MusicMakesPeopleGoGaGa!

Not.My.Time.

Sighh..

RT

Truth.

ehheee

MAFFACKA

discontent.

Soh Fah Ney.

Lovey Dovey

Damn.

Yaowwzaa!?

hello World!

Sigur Ros' song.

let it out!

hurt.

Y.O.U.

shorty.

bullshit.

days.

laziness strikes YET again.

hao! *red indian greetings*.

uhuh.uhuh.

fcukit.

realise.

NewLayoutYO!

L. V. Beethoven.

and again,a SONG.

strawberry swing.

evening yo.

whee.

hello!

I

irony.

quotes ;) .

Dont.ask.me.why..I.dont.know.why..Just.felt.like.it.

TheFabulousCats-Rimas

what do you want from me.

aiyaiyaiyaiai.

updates(no details).

argh!

LOLOLOLOL.

Shayne Ward - If That's Okay With You

Woah.

Hadi Here.

speciallyforyou.

Wowza.

okaywhattosay.

morepictures.

previouslypromisedpictures.

anotherSONG.

oops.

OfModernTimesAndPastMinds.

LongOverdue.

move,BITCH!get out the wayy hoe!

itsokayh.

Come Back To Me - Utada Hikaru

nicesong.

MichaelFranti-SayHey

hao! red indian greetings.